[11] It is getting coldЁЯМм in the morning and night. There is hardly anything more comforting than a piping hot cup of tea☕ on a cold winter morning in New Delhi. Haapy Winter's! I prefer to stay inside keeping myself warmЁЯТЖ. Nights are full of loneliness, cool breeze, shiveringЁЯМлЁЯМл.
I have struggled with depression whole my lifeЁЯШЧ. I didn’t know what it was when I was a kid, of course. No one did, really. It was the ’90s and my parentsЁЯЩЗ spent all their time fighting and trying to feed us. A life in poverty, a life where your wishes doesn't exist, a life without Friends and most important a life full of struggleЁЯШМ. Struggle to earn, struggle to feed and struggle to stay here on this planet earthЁЯПб. There was the day when I think I could dieЁЯШЗ because it wouldn’t traumatize anyone. But then I will not do this because, I didn’t want to hurt my friends. I didn’t want to hurt my family. I didn’t even really want to die. I just didn’t want to exist anymoreЁЯШК.
The best way to deal with complicated emotions was to pretend they didn’t exist. So I went to bed every night praying to not wake up; ЁЯПЪor to wake up into a different lifeЁЯПа, and maybe this one was just a dream. Generally, I am happyЁЯША. I have happiness every day. But there is always a deep well of sadness inside of me, what I say, my “baseline sadnessЁЯШЙ”.
It is getting dark earlier, more earlier and earlier.
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I have struggled with depression whole my lifeЁЯШЧ. I didn’t know what it was when I was a kid, of course. No one did, really. It was the ’90s and my parentsЁЯЩЗ spent all their time fighting and trying to feed us. A life in poverty, a life where your wishes doesn't exist, a life without Friends and most important a life full of struggleЁЯШМ. Struggle to earn, struggle to feed and struggle to stay here on this planet earthЁЯПб. There was the day when I think I could dieЁЯШЗ because it wouldn’t traumatize anyone. But then I will not do this because, I didn’t want to hurt my friends. I didn’t want to hurt my family. I didn’t even really want to die. I just didn’t want to exist anymoreЁЯШК.
The best way to deal with complicated emotions was to pretend they didn’t exist. So I went to bed every night praying to not wake up; ЁЯПЪor to wake up into a different lifeЁЯПа, and maybe this one was just a dream. Generally, I am happyЁЯША. I have happiness every day. But there is always a deep well of sadness inside of me, what I say, my “baseline sadnessЁЯШЙ”.
It is getting dark earlier, more earlier and earlier.
рдХोрдИ рдЯिрдк्рдкрдгी рдирд╣ीं:
рдПрдХ рдЯिрдк्рдкрдгी рднेрдЬें